mood:

Poem taken from My Lovely Sam Soon:
춤추라, 아무도 바라보고 있지 않은 것처럼.
Dance like no one is watching
사랑하라, 한번도 상처받지 않은 것처럼.
Love like you've never been hurt
노래하라, 아무도 듣고 있지 않은것처럼.
Sing like no one is listening
일하라, 돈이빌요하지 않은 것처럼.
Work like you don't need the money
살라, 오늘이 마지막 날인 것처럼.
Live life every day as if it were your last

This is the poem Sam Soon saw at the bus stop after her bf, Sam Sik didn't come back for a few mths (he promised her he'll be back after one week).

This is one of the 1st dramas i've seen when the male actors are waaayy better loOking than the female actresses.
of course Hyun Bin is the act cool but childish type.
then Daniel Henney is just very cute (in personality) in the show. heh heh.

Of course the main crux of the poem is the last line: telling us to cherish every moment in our lives.

Often, we all take things for granted (we hardly are able to do the above)..
partly cos we're unable to realize the bigger picture when we're trapped in our everyday problems tt seem so mind-boggling to us but in actual fact, they are nothing compared to bigger issues in world/ life.

Every wondered why when pple suffered an illness/ witnessed death in their family that their world didn't seem to fall apart?
But when we have exams/ pressing deadlines & work projects, we feel like we're dying soOn.

The big issues make the deadlines seem like nothing 'it's okie it's just a job/ it's just an exam' compared to ' i just lost my family/ i just had *touchwood* heart problem'.

When we have nothing to worry, we worry about just everything else we have around us.
Humans can never stop worrying/ stressing. so it's OKAY if u're stressed out. You are after all, human.
Hope this helps in some way!
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quite embarrassed today. which explains my cute monkey.
my fren was accompanying me to the deck for me to grab some hot milO (then i always use the plastic bag handle cos it's really super hot!)

the uncle said dey put it behind the rack now (got a grey hollow tube wif alot of plastic bag handles)..i didn't noe wad he was saying tt tym soO i toOk out one of the bags and tried to put my milo in it (i'm retarded @ this)

after that he kept on calling me from his stall -_-''' while i was slotting the cup into the hole.
jia haO dashed out of nowhere, called me sua ku & helped me put, after that the uncle came out and threw away jiahao's one & went to teach me how 2 use their 'new system'
omg. HAHAs.

ahHH.. lucky the deck dun hav so many pple.
it's damn funny but damn embarrassing.

today's psy lecture was super boring bahhh.
whyyyy..
Everything was boring today but as usual, i dozed off during nm lecture lOlx.

this morning, on my way to skoO..
i was so shocked (and very happy) to see Alvin, my colleague when we're teaching in Sengkang Pri.
hehehe...too bad we're not going to the same school today or else i'll have an extra jie-mei!
i miss him. sObx. and all those pple i met there~

mood:

bahh.
i'm jus floating arnd the hse~(came back frm music lesson, watched Air City then floated arnd, had dinner, now floating again)
bahh.
i need to get some readings done.

not much to update for this weekend.
apart from the fact i'm seeing 'mOnkiEs' everywhere & i've been having dreams every nite...
argHx.

i realise how outdated & stuck in time my implicit memories are.
like when i dream about house, i'll dream about my old house.
whyyyyy?
when i dream about a school, i'll think abt my sec skoO (not jc, not NUS)..
whyyy?

hmM.

haha I've decided to put moods for my blog (i noe i'm slow) & i found yoyo, my favourite monkey~

mood:
boOhoOs.
i realise i haven been reading my readings!!!
esp. soci of emotions..i'm completely lost in its sea of readings bleahX.
I will start tml!!!
Those posted on the right ain't all...still gt more (esp. from social psy ahHHh.)

wad have i been dOing last weekend???
I guess I've been toO busy going out & doing research on my tattoo project.
Projects are a waste of time..
and i have to hand in a textbook section 2 weeks frm nOW.
haven even penned a word (But i think i almost all the resources I need)..

think i need to chiong through readings for this weekend.
I dun feel suffocated strangely..cos i admit those are goOd reads BUT i've no will to turn the page.
I must.

but now feel exhausted *staggers*
just reached home frm skoO..
had a nicee steamboat with jiun kit & we both dropped our meatballs. lOlx.
ohoh not to mention I have to do an emotion assignment on him.

once again interesting work but just plain lazy.
where have all the "Once i'm in FASS, i'll be striving for dilligence cos I've no rights to complain abt studying hated subs" energy go?
-_-''' oh no.

I do love you soci psy & nm but somehow i'm nt putting much in our relationships..and these are complicating r/s.
helppppp.

mood:

for those who didn't watch idol.
all i can say is O.O for david cook's performance
i didn't even recognise the song at first. gosh. lOlx.

mood:

face up the fact pple (i mean to those love hopefuls)
there's nO such thing as that kind of love (i.e: happiness, passion, wanting 2 b with each other, romantic blahx)

i'm nt beng pessimistic or suffering from some post syndrome lOlx.
it's just tt we have to be realistic (learnt tt in emotions lect).
Love isn't hedonistic, love is realistic.

Love isn't just:
- romance
-happiness
- passion
- i'll die for you
- i'll love you for the rest of my life
- i'll give you my kidney if you need it

But:
- quarrels
- disenchantment
- expecting things in return
- weighing pros and cons of r/s
- distrust
- a kind of contract that once the cons outweighs the pros, that's more or less over.

i guess everyone's so used to the hedonistic (idealist) approach that when we face with those conflicts, we feel we dun 'love' the person as much as we used to.

wells to those who are clear enuff to see it, conflicts are part of love.
We not love the person less but we love him/ her in another way..
like at least we do worry/ get frustrated we're suffering frm some conflict & afraid our feelings for him/ her start to fade away..

as long as we dun get disillusioned and think love isn't like this soO we have to end it, then i guess more people have more permanent r/s...
that goes for marriage! (unless u're talking about unfaithfulness then hmpf! lOlx)

Romance (the ideal part of love) is a tool of the capitalist society used by the government or the media to portray a dream/ fantasy.
In fact people often confuse romance & love...
Love is more of something tt's withstand trials and tribulations..
Romance is smth positive that give pple the vibes in love.

So maybe people got the word 'love' mixed up?
Like people always say "I Love You" when actually dey can mean "I romance/romanize (if there's a verb tt can be used here for romance lolx) you..

Finally I think it's more touching when a person says I Cherish You instead of I Love You..
somehow cherish seems to last a longer time & pple usually mean it when they say that for a long period of time lOlx.

mood:

ack.
came back home damn early (skipped my music lesson cos too late by the time i reach there)
attended ju hiang's city harvest church's easter sermon..
it was not bad except that it's @ expo..ahHhhh...

hahas.
anyway had great fun ytd with weitai & gigi..
went to shokudo finally!
oOOOO..love the foOd but then suffered tummyache over the nite sObx.
i guess overload..
had tempura, sashimi, ramen, gyoza, desserts & macha shakes (had a complimentary one cos the waiter accidentally took my half drank shake away!)

amounted to $25/pax cos weitati offered to treat us dessert!
lOlx.
gigi's unglam moment! as usual..hahas.
we acted like some tourists @ the foOd bazaar..i bet the tempura chefs were like sniggering @ us while we were waiting for them lOlx.
Salmon & Maguro sashimi..the salmon one is to die for!!! QQ~

Weitai's omelette~Rich, smoOth & creamy.
Hokkaido cream corn, red bean with mochi & tofu cheesecake.
Cake was my fave..wish there was a full cake tt I can buy home hahas.

Ratings: 7.5/10 (8.5 if i hadn't got a tummyache & the lack of dessert varieties).

Supposed to post these pics long long ago..
went with the Jie-meis to Bar Stop near Somerset MRT last Saturday nite.
mmm hmm..surprisingly goOd.
Had sapphire gin & chocolate martini for drinks..
i can never forget tt martini..mayb cos i'm nt a alcoholic fan lOlx.

Those that make you go weak in the kneeeessss...
Chicken Piccata & Pasta in tomato..wahhHH..I like this dish cos piccata is smth tt's hard to come by. Becos of it, the next time I see a piccata in a restaurant i'm going to order it!
Pork Loin with Brussel Sprouts & Roasted Potato: yummy yummy! Very porky & smOkey.
Pork & Veal Sausage Pizza: this was right in my face! OMG I almost fainted within 5 secs (cos they're still taking photos of the other dishes)...almost couldn't resist the temptation. The taste was as good as its aroma. Cheese that melts down in the throat.


The last mini burger: Very tasty snack tt goes well with Kitty's Lil Creatures Beer.
MINE! hahass..kinda like ice cream with liquor.

The cozy red sofa!Kitty & Qinqi's caipirinha *pokes pokes*

Qinqi acting high after a Whiskey

And weird after the caipirinha haha.s
Trying to squeeze everyone in lOlx.

Ratings for food: 8.9./10!!
Drinks: I'm not an expert but I guess dey taste better than Timbre's magarita soO 7/10 lOlx.
Ambience: 7/10 for the cozy upstairs but not for the small tables downstairs.

mood:

goOfy cute charm!
this is one of the songs he sang during idol (which simon like i dunno why cos it's nt that goOd).
but he's still my fave idol guy =P

Hallelujah


Btw, this is i think the best performance on idol this week.

Syesha's Yesterday

changed my skin again!
right.
a) cos i wanna 2 put youtube vid
b) pple complain screen toO small
c) i'm lazy to change taggie colour soO skin still must be blue!

lOlx.
Watched a part of this in psy tutorial.

Derren Brown The Heist
Derren Brown, expert in psychology, attempts to make a group of middle managements into committing _______.



Milgram Expt Derren Brown's version
extremely famous expt in psy. & it's got ethical issues..hmM soO why is this coming out again?!

don ask me why.
i just rekindled love for this song by Enrique..
was digging through..
oOo and i didn't know jennifer love hewitt was part of the vid.



Would you dance if I asked you to dance?
Would you run and never look back
Would you cry if you saw me crying
Would you save my soul tonight?

Would you tremble if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh oh please tell me these
Now would you die for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms tonight?

(Chorus)
I can be you hero baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away

Would you swear that you'll always be mine?
Would you lie would you run away
Am I in to deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here tonight

Chorus

I just want to hold you (2x)
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here tonight

Chorus (2x)

You can take my breath my breath away
I can be your hero

gahHHh...perhaps it's going to be my future wedding song or smth.
or smth that a guy will sing (nicely of course) to me~
always want to know a guy that can really sing (in my own opinion)

oOkie.
i really.need.to.study.sob.

okie i changed my skin to another one of those "cuteeeee to the bone"
lOlx.

but at least everytime u come visit my blog, it's a cheery feeling!
i realise i can change into like 5 different skins (i found quite alot i like) but i guess i will forget abt all this & be lazy again~

sO sad can't use my prev greenery layout cos there's prob with bandwidth~
oh wells!

i tot with a change of blogskin, more pple will flock to my blOg..
BUT *loOks sadly at the tagboard*

had an up & down day today~
for the whole day i was contemplating whether i shld cut my hair blahx blahx..
i told my story to 2 pple & dey went "erm...i think u shld consult the hairdresser"

soO i was very emOtional on my trip to the hairdresser's..
i never see her for 6 mths liaO oh noOoo...
the 1st thing she said "ur hair grow so fast!"
omg how very true..when she cut my hair tt tym it was around the shoulder only~
and she oso changed her hair to a fringe of lime green gOsh..
only she can pull it off manx.

then after i told my story, she just said "ok"
BAHX all the worrying for nothing..
but after cutting i'm still worrying.
i'll nv be satisfied. but i guess i carn run away by rebonding/ perming my hair again..i really wish i dun hav such weird waves (it's nt tt bad compared 2 alot of pple but still i'm nt happy)...

mayb cos my head is small soO god gave me thick hair roOts. sObx.

apart from all this commotion, there's a few others..
like having to wake up @ 6am today.

oh and my deviance tutor seems a bit PMS today.
lOlx..but not in a irritating way tho.
she started telling us scary things like when female researchers interview inmates, dey most prob get harassed/ raped & she almost did once when she was an intern.

oh and women are like commodities in gangs. *gulps*
she had to interview gangs soO she can be seen as a higher prized commodity being from NUS and smart & all..
if not for her friends & contacts that intro her to the gang...she could really end up being one ahHH!

and then the fact abt the sg govt closing 1 eye & actually letting drug trafficking take place among chinese secret societies..O.O
soO the recent drug seize is mostly likely nt frm the chinese societies, but other pple.
and that the term "institutionalized symbiotic r/s" actually means corruption O.O

deviance is soO coOl but toO realistic @ the same time.

im really catching the laptop disease lOlx.
why carn i sleep when my body's really tired now!!!

oOps..
i substitute blogging with videOs lOlx.
and i changed my skin finally! yeu ai tinks the prev 1 was soO childishly colourful...but at least it brightens pple's moOd!
soO lazzyyy these days..

i have assignments to do but i'm so NOT motivated ack.
Have ready resources but just can't lift my hand to write a few words~
all i do is get stuck with the comp *click click click*

dreammy weather..
it's been raining non stop for 2 days!
i wonder how long is this going to last..
+ve: we'll feel coOl whereever we go & peaceful sleeps
-ve: bad weather for going out (oh and running...)

just like this..
i can put the wollen top i bought from japan tO use lOlx.
my mum's been complaining that i'm nt wearing it (altho i like that top)
i rmb-ed i wore it once in sg when it rained in the morning..then when the rain stopped after 1 hr or so..i was pespiring like mad for the rest of the day!

maybe i'll risk wearing it again tml~

HELP ME!
GET MOTIVATED!

I didn't think abt this..
but watching some of idol season 7's most terrible auditions make me tickled pink lOlx!
here are my faves...guranteed laughter!

The biggest fan~


No sex allowed!


Paula's stalker


Let my people go..


Ben Haar part 1


Part 2

I enjoyed idol this week...
i have high expectations k!
lOlx..overall everyone performed better than they did in the previous round..

here are 3 picked frm 16 that i felt shine this time round & had a high chance 2 gain a spot in the top 12 (and they did!)

Carly's performance (this is my fav out of 3!)


David Archuleta's performance


David Hernandez


hahas..
so now jw can watch a bit of idol lOlx.

and DON u THINK this guy looks alot like patrick dempsey & a lil orlando bloOm? OMG. lolx i just carn help marvelling over this fact lOlx.
Patrick Dempsey
Bloom

It's All Coming Back To Me Now


It's a brilliant song (gives me the *magical* feel) but nt a brilliant music video!
lOlx soO just pay attention to the vocals.

[Boy:] There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed if I just listened to it right outside the window
[Girl:] There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust and I just knew my eyes were drying up forever

[Both:]
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I have ever made

[Boy:]
But when you touch me like this (touch me like this)
And you hold me like that (hold me like that)
I just have to admit that it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this (touch you like this)
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

[Boy:]
There were moments of gold and there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again but then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow-baby, baby!

If I kiss you like this (kiss you like this)
And if you whisper like that (whisper like that)
It was lost long ago but it's all coming back to me

If you want me like this (if you want me like this)
And if you need me like that (if you need me like that)
It was dead long ago but it's all coming back to me

It's so hard to resist and it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall, but it's all coming back to me now....

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then!

But if I touch you like this (touch you like this)
And if you kiss me like that (kiss me like that)
It was so long ago but it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this (touch me like this)
And if I kiss you like that (kiss you like that)
It was gone with the wind but it's all coming back to me now

[Girl:]
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to me now

[Boy:]
There were moments of gold and there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again but then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow-baby, baby!

If I kiss you like this (kiss you like this)
And if you whisper like that (whisper like that)
It was lost long ago but it's all coming back to me

If you want me like this (if you want me like this)
And if you need me like that (if you need me like that)
It was dead long ago but it's all coming back to me

It's so hard to resist and it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall, but it's all coming back to me now....

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then!

But if I touch you like this (touch you like this)
And if you kiss me like that (kiss me like that)
It was so long ago but it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this (touch me like this)
And if I kiss you like that (kiss you like that)
It was gone with the wind but it's all coming back to me now

[Girl:]
It's all coming back
It's all coming back to me now

[Boy:]
There were moments of gold and there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again but they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow-baby, baby, baby!

When you touch me like this (touch me like this)
And when you hold me like that (hold me like that)
It was gone with the wind but it's all coming back to me

When you see me like this (see me like this)
And when I see you like that (see you like that)
Then we see what we want to see-all coming back to me

The flesh and the fantasies-all coming back to me
I can barley recall, but it's all coming back to me now....

If you forgive me all this (forgive me all this)
If I forgive you all that (forgive you all that)
We forgive and forget and it's all coming back to me now

[Girl:] It's all coming back to me now
[Boy:] We forgive and forget
[Both:] And it's all coming back to me now....

finally i get to blog properly!!
gosh...
my tests are finally over.

NM was okie but i should have retained more info in my brain, then i'll have more confidence in answering..
apparently my temporal, frontal, parietal & occipital lobes are so filled with psy that there's no more space to squeeze any more nm.

Psy was harder with negative marking & all..
questions were trickier than those that i've practised with..
I finished half hr early & check my paper 3 times ( at the same time affiriming whether i should leaving my blank answers blank or take a gamble)
soO i left arnd 15 questions behind..
and some i took the risk..

Within that hr i was tricked like 3-4 times for those questions
soO glad i had ample time to check..
or else I get more marks deducted due to oversight on my part.

and reading chap 1 of my tb was a waste of my time.
boOhoOs.

on to the other side of my life.
I guess now that the stress is over, I've nt much to get frenzied over soO i hope i won't be imagining things again..

I remained calm nevertheless when I was studying.
This made me feel impersonal & unemotional somehow.

Am glad had sixiang to talk to online & at 1+am (hearing my terrible voice)
thank you!!! *virtual hug*

it did help quite a bit
and for the past few days, i was 'normal'.
but i'm not sure how long this will last.

no i dowan to feel detached and cold and shrug it off like it's no biggie.
yet i dowan to be sad.

I always hate it when pple broke up and one party carries on with life as if nothing happened & they are getting on fine with their new lives..
I say they get over easily= r/s ain't that much to them.

But the tot of me potentially becoming like one of these pple scares me a little.
Am I numb or what? Do I still feel?

Like Yeu Ai was shocked i sounded so cool over this...
I wonder whether I displayed my true emotions or I'm just being optimistic or I'm going through some form of depression.
drats.

I actually tot I was going through mild depression last time.
Cos I was happy, then sad, then happy, then sad.
and when I'm feeling really down, my heart actually hurts.
like I could feel a 'tiring' kind of pain as if it was exhausted.

I wonder how but I guess when the time comes, it'll be over like a dream.

my chervil
qinqi* bubbles
kitsOn/ kitty
jeslin/ buttercup
aslany
sOn shahidan
jay
eunice/ braces!
vanessa/ v.t
jessie
vanessa chue
shiyun
jiaying
wan wen
shawn
vicki
jianwei
choon peng
jiun kit/ scuter
weitai
Felicia Chin
samantha
yonghan/ frankie
yanling/ hippo dinosaur
taffy
vivien
aloysius
hikoto
jason

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you know i'll be there

hoo la la

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